February,07/2021

I just opened up your story, it had touched me, That is actually how I’m been felling for the Past 50 years or so, I am 61 now and started back when i was 9 or 10, I was always in trouble back in school al the way up to grade 9. I just made the passing grade. I specialize in the Restaurant Services, Commerical Baking and Music. I worked in the School Cafetaria on my lunch, word fo 20min. lunch 20 min. My 1st job that i got through school part time down in the CNE, I worked there for 3 years in the catering. I got my first full Time job at Diminion Stores Bakeryies , now Metro. Back in the 80’s things started to change for the grocerys stores , I had other baking jobs, and still worked at Dominion in the maintanice until stores started to closed up , there were lay-off, bumbing for seniorty. I got the hell out of there befor I got laid off compleatly . I got in the MTRCA seasonal fulltime , 4 years seasonal then full time for the other 2 years in the catering department, I left there back in August, 1989 I wasnt seeing a future there, as my job title was unit Manager then field supervisor for the last 2 years, then I joined TTC and i worked for 30 years till retirement.

Back to my desires to change into a woman back then I didn’t have the knowledge and I didnt know who to talk to. Ya back I played with other Girls and dolls and I didn’t have many male friends. I have always dressid in the house and never went out< I worried what other's would think to tell my parrents, if some ont snitch i was smooking i'm sure they tell them i was wearing a dress, My Mother came home from work early 1 day and caught me with one of her skirts on, thats only I fell a sleep with it on. She had yelled at me to take it off and called me a ferry, instead talking to me about wearing it and got me some support, over the years I kept on dressing up , I had started to be out in public was I jioned a fitness club Downtown Toronto and started to ware tights and a leotard, 1 year an work our department had a christmas party and we were doing skits. I went all out and dress as a female, with the full make up on, I had felt very confertable all dress up. Over the past 30 years I had gone out a nd bought female clothing, the first time my wife found my bra & panties she thought I was fooling around, I had convinced that they were mine, which i had convience her that there was no one else, I had kept this dressing up from my wife for 28 years, I had even gone and bought Maturity clothing, if the store would let me buy 1 of them pillow's I would, I even gone to bridle shops and tried on Weeding gowns on, thing that I would like to be a bride, I even gone to Fertility Clinics, and talked about fertility drugs. With all the information out there today, this past year, I started to dress up more and more , and I started to come out of my shell and Messaged some friencs growing up with, only way my wife found out was through 1 of my message which I didn;t have it in private mode, and I wanted the right time to talk to my wafe about my feelings of desire waanting to be a woman, couple of weeks I reached out my new family docttor to get some help and support, I was in touched with the Couchiching Family Health Team, And I have my 1st phone appiontment on February 08/2021. and I just cant wait quick enough .